So instead of going to the library and doing my Perspective homework, I stayed home and watched South Park. I have class later today, which I’m of course going to, but yeah. All-nighter, here I come. Whatever.
I have these moments of self-reflection that I never right down and then get annoyed with myself for not doing so. Yeah, it’s a vicious self-pity cycle of fail. I know.
My answer to life.
Anyway, I was thinking about how much I keep ‘surprising’ my old friends and family. I don’t mean I ‘surprise’ them with a birthday party or something [I’m pretty lazy].
Now that I’ve been away on forced to interact with new people, I speak my mind a lot more, I don’t agree and try to make everyone happy. Inside I used to be very angry and have downright hateful thoughts towards many around me. I disagreed with almost all of them on everything, but never presented my side of the story, and so I grew to despise myself as well.
Often when I disagree with people today, they try and get me to agree with them. I’ve noticed in contrast to this, many of my teachers and adults don’t give a shit about my opinion. In that I mean they simply state their opinion and leave it at that. Nothing else. They usually don’t try and persuade me, as the disagreement is over something trivial.
Oh, more importantly, what they get that a lot of my closer in age friends don’t get, is that life is based on opinions. Our laws, for example, are what we, the majority, agree on as “right” and “wrong”. A criminal might think differently about our laws. Whether he was raised in a certain environment or wants food for his family, he has different opinions than a normal law-abiding person, and here in America that’s fine as long as you don’t get caught breaking the law [cuz then yo’ ass is goin’ to jail, son!].
I like seeing the lighter sides of things despite being a sarcastic depressed fat fuck. Really, I [lovingly] troll my own friends because I’m too much of a pussy [and lazy bitch] to go after a stranger.
Lately I’ve found a balance of being honest and being polite. There are just some things you don’t say to people, and in contrast, I love fucking with my friends [as mentioned previously].
It’s not a form of revenge [oh, wait…], it’s a matter of me expressing myself. Just because I disagree with a person doesn’t mean I’m right, and it doesn’t mean the other person’s wrong. Even well-documented facts are debatable with me, because that’s just the person I am, I’m open to everything and anything [though I might not always approve/agree with it].
For example, scientists have said for a long while that all multicellular life needs oxygen [or some shit], and guess what? Yup. They found a multicellular organism that doesn’t need oxygen, quite recently in fact, and no one but the geeks were surprised.
Totally reminds me of the jellyfish from SpongeBob. http://www.physorg.com/news189836027.html
Okay, so, basically, what I’m saying is that I know when to leave a fight alone. And, yes, I get pissed off even at my closes friends if they keep trying and trying to force their opinion on me, like that’s gonna change my motherfucking mind. Yeah. That’s the American way, amirite?
On another note, my brother apparently returned home. Whatever. I might post another blog about Dean later. Right now I’m pretty tired and still need to go to class and have an all-nighter to pull.
GO TEAM PROCRASTINATION.
What I learned: It’s okay to have different opinions. It’s not okay to force and continuously debate your opinions when the other person obviously doesn’t give a shit. Calm the fuck down. Not everyone thinks like you.
And just for the record, I’m not forcing my opinion on anyone reading this. I’m ranting online like a 16yr old girl, and remember, no one takes 16yr old girls seriously. Do you?
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